Friday, January 7, 2011
a moment
I title this "a moment" because that is exactly what I need right now before I walk out and leave it all behind. Am I the only one that has days where you want to rip your hair out? Maybe I am not built to be a mother, sometimes I wonder. I know that patience is not my best attribute, but the way the last week has been going for me I don't know how much patience I would need to cope in a sane person manner. My children have colored on walls, peed their pants, hid food around the house, fallen out of their beds, rubbed peanut butter all over the t.v, stepped in the popcorn bowl and walked around the house, and that is just a touch of the chaos. I AM ALMOST READY TO QUIT. However I will not. I'm just not sure how to balance my sanity with the normalcy of crazy children. You see I know I am not the first parent to have their child rub peanut butter on their TV. But I wish I could be a fly on the wall to see how they reacted when it happened. I seem to have moments when I can handle it with a breeze and then there are times like this afternoon. I don't need to paint a picture for you, just take my word for it. I don't think I am a bad parent, I just don't know how I am supposed to learn to deal with those times that you think might just destroy you. *QUE ATTEMPTED DEEP BREATH*.... ok. I still don't really feel any better, but the good news is tomorrow is another day. And I pray its a better one.
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Every mom and dad go through these feelings at one point or an other!! It is hard, but keep in mind they are young children that really don't know what their actions do to us parents. A trick someone once told me w.r.t marriage I use sometimes if I'm having a bad day. All you need to do is place water in your mouth (helps keep hurtful words that may slip up in the heat of anger) and you keep it there, as you look at the thing that upset you think of a child that has lost a parent, or the families that have lost a child. Realize how lucky you are to have such beautiful children in your life. Once you feel better than you can spit the water out, show your children that you love them and that what they are doing or did was wrong and it hurts your feeling. Get them to help with the clean up and then place them in a time out so they know the actions were not approved. Live each day to the fullest! BTW if you have leather couches hairspray takes out pen marks ;) HAHA.. I've been threw that one before! GOOD LUCK HUN!
ReplyDeleteYou aren't a bad mom because you have days where you want to run away. We all have moments like this. Like two days after replacing our carpet because of stains and wear, my blessed 5 year old globbed her lip gloss all over it. Sometimes, love is a choice. And I have to consciously remind myself that my daughter is worth more to me than the new carpet. It becomes a mantra after awhile.
ReplyDeleteI have to admit, though, I snorted when I read about the peanut butter smeared TV. There will come a day when you laugh about it too, I promise. Love you!
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